Well, this blog, like many other things in my life, started in my mind with great fanfare, only to fizzle almost immediately. Not for lack of vision, but lack of follow-through. (More on that later, undoubtedly.)
I joined a running club in December, and went to an orientation meeting in January. As I introduced myself, I emphasized how slow I am, how much of a beginner I am, etc. Veteran members told me not to worry about speed, to just join them and run. So I joined them at Sunday track practice; the first time in my life I’ve been part of an athletic group. A few weeks later, I showed up at the lake in Evanston for a Saturday morning group run. I was definitely the slowest of the bunch, and one of the women kept pace with me the entire 3.5 miles. At the end she mentioned that the club’s motto is, “No one runs alone.” That melted some of the hard part inside me that feels the need to figure things out on my own.
Then 2 Saturday’s ago I was running with the group and felt pain in my left foot – enough to force me to stop running and hobble the remaining mile and a half back to my car. I was scheduled to run my first 8k the next Saturday, but by Wednesday I still couldn’t bear weight on my foot. This week I took myself to a podiatrist who immediately told me I had a stress fracture and put “the boot” on my foot. Wait for it – four weeks! To say I was bummed is putting it mildly.
So here I am sitting in bed like Emily Dickenson (I wish) deciding how I’m going to handle this “situation.” So far I’ve been feeding off a stew of denial, anger, humor and self-pity. In my stronger moments I came up with 2 ideas:
1. Give myself the gift of a personal trainer when I’m off the boot. (I can feel muscles turning to flab as we speak.)
2. Accomplish some things I’ve been wanting to do. (I’ve got half a country song scribbled in my purse.)
I started this blog as a beginning runner. Sitting here with my thoughts, I’m realizing that there are some life skills where I would also call myself a beginner. Facing adversity with grace for starters.
Let the lessons begin.